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hi, to that
one person who left me a comment recently, im not really sure who you are but you know who. if you want to email me, my address
is monkeydarling05@yahoo.com
whenever you want to talk to me,
just let me know, i'll be here for you.
a valo gram for you: i mean not what i mean
in the weakness of my love, i see no intention of getting hurt, only of loving it. the love which kills me, builds
me. the love that springs from my heart, tears you apart. i no longer see you as a person but as my provider. a provider
of life and death over which it feels you have control. the life we build together, deteriorates all the same because together
we need no life. we heed pain only since its presence suggests our existence in the eyes of its creator. love and pain come
hand in hand, we would not have one without the other. we live our lives according to these, without pain i could not feel
your love.
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movies to watch when you feel stupid
aladdin
wicker park
super troopers
eternal sunshine
anne of green gables
breakfast club
donnie darko
say anything
love actually
the crow
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WHEN
YOU LEAST EXPECT IT, EXPECT IT
so much has happened since i last came here...some of us fell apart, some of us reunited,
and though i tried to escape the thought of it happening, it was inevitable, no one likes change, unless of course the change
is good. but even in that case there are some negative outcomes. we have gone through those ofcourse, some of them have torn
us apart, and others made us stronger. i guess we just gotta deal with whatever comes our way. i for one had had my share
of problems, and right now am actually in a great situation, half of it atleast. i miss everyone so much, each and every person
that crossed my path in the last couple years i've lived. i want to keep in touch with all of you, though that might be impossible,
and most of you dont come here anymore, if any. ofcourse it was my fault for not updating this shit. i love you all
muchisimo!
so right now im at school this is my third week at UT arlington, and to tell you the truth,,,,,its
ok. thats all not great, not super bad. im lonely though. dont have many of my buddies here. just one that i am actually comfortable
around. and im so lucky for that! schoolwork is ok, kinda hard kinda lot.....but ok. i have one photography class, black and
white, and it is pretty awesome to being doing that again after so much time away from the darkroom. just today i made my
first contact sheet. as soon as i started developing it, i got that feeling again, the one i am actually pursuing photography
for (not the only reason). everytime i go in the darkroom i just feel peace. its very relaxing gives you time to think and
you get beautiful images out of it, i jsut think its one of the most amazing things. my roomate is cool, shes from australia,
and actually ran over a kangaroo once! muahahahaha. we have pretty much the same taste in music. she likes taking back sunday
so much she made like three shirts for them, im like dude, how much closer could i have gotten to a better roomate. anyways,
sorry if im boring you, but if you got this far, theres atleast one thing im doing ok on.
jsut want you guys to know that i miss all of you, and anytime you have your hands free
send me an email or something....mucho amor. monica bang
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GROCERY BINGo, how much better can it get. jose came to visit me today, yay....! it makes
me happy, i just want to sing, lol, maybe not. but it was awesome, so glad i got to see him again, im soooo freaking excited
the winter's coming, its only like super cool since i get to use my hats and SCARVEs and gloves. i love gloves!
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just one of those days, you know what i mean!
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stitting here wrtiing this stupid stuff, not literally stupid, cuz it cant really even think,
well it doesnt have the ability, and i should be reading and i think i will soon, but not quite yet....i need to go somewhere,
so sick of being in this place every day, i need to make me some cool friends, yah, soome cool ones, not like the loser
friends i have now, heehehehhe, jk, i wwould never be able to replace yall
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i saw my guys today! yay, they actually came to visit me up in herre! yah it was coool, i got
to see my sweetie, who is now falling asleep on me, heehehe. these guys are such dorks and i miss them, so yah good thing
they came...yah im sad now....so bye!
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hehehehe, it was cool, these days make me feel bettter than ive been lately, . its good cuz
like i need to feel mor happy then ive been.....well not that im not happy, just a lil lonely, you know its weird, that i
actually put up here how i feel, probably cuz i know no one really read this, only if you are actually interested in
what i have to say and the chances of that are slim to none. the only people that would actually come actually care i guess,
i dont know.
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