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stupid conscience
when i leave
i wont really be
gone
you have to ignore
the whispers
and just hold on.
its only really
over
when we've both
given up.
when i'm not here
dont assume im with
someone else
assuming gets us
nowhere
and thats not where
i want to be
i want to be with
you
where i'm always
happy
and never need anything
else.
i need to be with
you
where you hold me
close
and make sense of
it all.
when i leave
i wont really be
gone
trust your instincts
to keep holding
on.
radio screaming into my
ear
i realize what i've done
by makingyou part of my
life.
i've seen how people get
hurt by love
and i've felt it all before
and though i know how damaging
it can be
i cant resist you
i didnt think i could have
feelings like these for you
even when i answered yes
i didnt think you could
make me want to scream
that good scream from when
i'm happy
but what if i let this happen
wont you just be the next
person in line to hurt me
i dont know if i want that
to happen
but i can't resist your
beautiful eyes
i can't resist from the
way you look at me
i listen to these songs
about love and loss
and though i've loved and
lost
i cant imagine myself without
you right now
as if you'll always be here
but what if thats not the
type of comitment you want
what if you want someone
else
and that someone isnt me
but you'll settle for less
i dont want you to settle
for less
because then that means
you're not really happy
but i am.
you make me so happy
i found my breakthrough to reality
the one ive been waiting for to set me free
all this time ive been lying to myself
forcing the lie upon my heart
thinking i still care
and that it tore me apart
now i know how i really feel
and the relief has brought me here
without inchlong scars
and without regrets.
im happy...for where you've brought me
the smell of burnt hair fills the air
and i try to avert my mind
from all it is you mean to me
you came in and took over so easily
and i understand its not all about me
but sometimes i can be so self centered
and i like the way you make me feel
a nice clean compliment
and a sincere smile
go far
when you dont know who u are
i think thats where im at
i think you've helped me out
and now i think i need you more
i depend on you being here
excessively
even more than before
darkness and cold surround you tonight
while you sit and wonder what you could have done different
what you could have said to keep things the way they were
but even then, you werent happy
when all she did was keep you locked up
and took you out only to play her mind games
she shuts you out
expecting to gain something
maybe confidence, though its like she has enough
cuz who can make things so rough
for someone who only tried to make it right
thats what you do, make things right
when her only desire is to have control over every situation
and over your heart, which she so often likes to break
bright blue skies
and little white lies
seem to be making me happy
i love the colors
and the combinations of each
but i hate how i always
make a speech
i always have to be right
even when i might be wrong
i always make short story long
i always have to have my way
and thats when it all begins to fade
best friends become acquaintances
acquaintances become less and less
until they mean nothing at all
dejavus and flashbacks wont help
when they're all gone
this time i know im not wrong
throwing myself into the corner
i force depression back into the system
of the life i thought i knew
and the happiness i used to feel
nothing's been what it seems
nothing is new again
all the same people
saying all the same things
throws off my plan
of being unpredictable
trying to start over is not my thing
and neither is this dark phase im in
cuz i want to see you happy
i want you to feel normal again
and not let all those things she says
get in the way of who you want to be
whyd you put me here
when you didnt even try
all you did was make me smile
now its hard when i want to cry
you made my life go from hard to easy
but made it more difficult all the same
he lies alone in a field of grass
noticing the deception as clear as glass
and he still doesnt know what it all means
always remembering that things are not what they seem
so let him down easy
easier then the last one
let him down easy
I dont want to see him get hurt
cuz you think you can play with people's hearts
the way you beat me at twister
and you think you can throw them around
but im not gonna let that happen to me
so next time im lost
maybe i dont want to be found
threatened by insecurities
i struggle to keep you mine
the feeling inside me always grows
that only you can make me shine
but why does it seem that you try to escape
through every crack i've overseen
i hail to your every command
and fall to my knees at your side
no one else sees me as great
because of all those qualities i always simply hide
why is it that i'm threatened by my insecurities
is it because you bring out the best in me
splash me with water and color my eyes
wanting it all to be a surprise
you twirl me around and confuse me to death
giggle too much and fall on my bed
life is too sweet to ever give up
your body's too sacred to ever stain
the yellow of your skin
and green of your eyes
make me stand by and mesmerize
but the moon slides through the dark night sky
and i lie asleep on the frozen ground
reality sinks in and i become flesh
and you are now gone forever
take me with you, that place you go
when life seems to much to endure
show me what to say and do
when i can't take it anymore
cuz you make it all seem so easy
as if life's not hard at all
show me where to go
when they say the wrong things
when they tell me what i don't want to hear
all the things they know i fear.
tell me why you say your sorry
bringin the pain back to me
cuz your the one it's all about
the one from who i need to be free.
so tell me where to go
where i can get away
when all this becomes too much
and everyones in a rush
to ever care how i really feel
to pretend that fake smile is enough
because they themselves
don't know what to do
when their life gets too rough.
tell me where to go
where i can escape all it is that keeps me down
this place here is too messed up
i don't want to be around.
take me to that place that makes you smile
so we can stay there forever and a while
in the night you wake me up,
you drag me into your dreams
every morning i get up
wanting to have stayed more, it seems
i comb my hair, for once,
and try on something cute
i don't know who you are
but i wanna impress someone.
you make me want to change
the person i once was
the person who cried in oceans
but made her friends smile.
you make me wanna look real
someone who changes lives.
i look in the mirror,
practice how i'll smile at you next.
i think about you and wonder
if you'll let me change your life.....
i lay down and cry but nothing comes out
i'm afraid to have run out of tears
and of everything there is
this is what i fear
because crying is what i do best
i wish you wouldn't hide these things from me
because i'm probably the one that cares most
i wonder if she feels the way that i did once
so happy and without a care
and i wonder if she's what you've been looking for
the reason you made my heart tear
so i'll wait to hear you say it
the words i never expected to come out
and i'll wait 'til you go ahead and flaunt it
hearing your words all about
that person you've found that makes you happy
since it's obvious i couldn't do that
you call me, i guess to check if i'm ok
but i'll hide what i feel now forever
so she can draw those hearts
and write those initials,
and have the great thoughts of you
and i wish i was happy for you...but i'm not
Raven of the Past /by Mobo
The past that haunts my waking hours The Raven of the dreaming powers
of darkest night and deepest sky There's no way, now, that I can fly.
Ebony and black of feather fly my dreams and part the heather The
sweet abyss of my mind The refuge you so yearn to find.
Divine the future, know the past especially what you know won't last.
The sun has set, the moon will rise and so, the coming of thine eyes.
In these dreams the Raven gave my heart still beats inside it's grave.
Part the veil, shut the door hark the Raven, "nevermore".
The past that haunts my waking hours The Raven of the dreaming powers
of darkest night and deepest sky There's no way, now, that I can fly.
I'd kill myself over and over again
because i'm lost without your embrace,
without staring in your eyes
or looking at your face.
i go near it,
then lose my sanity again.
as hard as i try,
you'll never let me win.
that heart of yours, it won't accept
despite all the nights i've wept
you think it is foolish,
for me to say your the one
but loss of hope is the only thing
my heart has shun.
the battle isn't over,
my heart won't be defeated,
because you are the one
that in my life is needed
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